one of my friends wrote an encouragement note to me earlier this year that said "sometimes the most vulnerable parts of us are the most beautiful parts of us."
I had no idea what that meant and why he wrote that when I read that note at first.
but it's hit me that I am so afraid of being vulnerable. I'm afraid of these deeper conversations, of these deeper friendships.
I'm not sure why. it's not that I'm particularly quiet; it's more that I'm quick to laugh, quick to talk about things that don't matter at much. but when it comes to anything deeper, I close off immediately.
there is a definite difference between being quiet and being introverted.
even though I am so introverted, I still need an outlet. writing, photography, and God have been so much more to me this summer than ever before. I have been so afraid to share these with people that I know in real life-I'd so much rather hide behind a screen of red, green, and blue dots.
and what's wrong with hiding behind these colors?
I'm still connecting with people. there are so many people out there that inspire me and bring my spirits up that I've never met in real life. that in some cases, I've never really interacted with - it's just their work speaking to me in ways that are so, so powerful.
I have a question, though.
what is the point of being vulnerable? what is the point of connecting with others? why is this so hard - and why should I care?
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