distanced.

I see God doing so many amazing things among my friends. especially the new freshmen... I don't know their testimonies but seeing how they grow from day to day just amazes me.
I've heard so many amazing things about how God is working on this campus. I hear these things... but I am never personally a witness to them.

where is God in my life?

I'm trying. trying so hard.
maybe it's the fact that I'm trying.
He doesn't call us to try...
He simply calls us to believe and obey.

"So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. For in just a very little while, 'He who is coming will come and will not delay. But my righteous one will live by faith. And if he shrinks back, I will not be pleased with him.' But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved. Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."
-Hebrews 10:35-11:1

I feel a little bit lost and... far away, I guess.
I know in my mind what I believe.
I just don't see God changing things.
I don't really see God working.



I miss being close to God.